weird but good

First week at the new job is in the books and I think it’s going to be fun. First weeks are always a big pile of awkward but luckily these folks wanted me to work with them and I know a lot of the players from my previous life so that makes things easier. The one big observation after the first week is that I really need to develop a new work rhythm. This job is going to involve a lot more travel than I’ve done in the past couple years and I have to get that back. I also have a lot of players to learn and develop communication patterns with them as well so I’ve added that to my spinning brain. None of these are bad problems to have but things to work through.

That being said I miss my friends. Weirdest part of the week was not having multiple conversations with the two people I relied on daily to get me through the shit. This too shall pass but it’s not fair to constantly reach out to people who are still stuck in the place from whence I just ran away. Once I get settled and am confident that this is a place I want to be for a while I will do everything possible to assemble more smart people. Anyway, enough about the new gig thing.

In other news I had not one but two past dates reach out in an attempt to reconnect. This post holiday time must be the season for that activity because I’ve fallen victim to that kind of thinking in the past during January and February especially here. (I should probably redo that sentence, but, oh well) In both cases I politely declined the offers of connecting again because I want to concentrate on nailing this new job and for the next couple months I will be on the road constantly. In both instances things took a turn when I respectfully declined.

One of my former dates accused me of leading her on even though we have had zero communication for more than 7 months. She went as far as noting how “fake nice” I was the last time we talked and I really shouldn’t play with peoples emotions. Holy Hell that human has now been blocked everywhere possible and added to the growing list of reasons why dating might not be for me.

The next one took a different tactic and asked me out on a date. I loved the initiative and the fact that someone was indicating they wanted to spend time with me but had to explain that my schedule was going to be intense for the next few months. I also revisited the fact that there didn’t seem to be a connection between us so she would be better served pursuing other options that might contain mutual attraction. Honesty was the wrong tactic there because she came unglued. Apparently I am a “toxic narcissist” and I should warn people…

So I interrupted her (because I loved the idea not because I was trying to be rude although Im not above that) and said that warning labels would be great. I let her know that I appreciated her observations about my personality defects but I wasn’t really sure if her work as an account rep led to qualified diagnosis of any kind. She fired back something about the last five guys she dated all being the same so I posed the theory that the problem might lie at her feet… and yup, that didn’t go well. Before she got blocked she mentioned “telling everyone” so I’ve got that going for me.

I am thankful for my current state of distraction. Lots to look forward to and yesterday, out of nowhere, a near perfect roommate popped on the radar. These are early talks but having someone around sounds kind of good after my recent sequestration. More on that in the future.

And because I’m trying to enjoy this place whilst Ive got it I went for another walk today. The falls always entertain me.