*warning: this post has been done for two days and almost got deleted from drafts for being whiny. If you stopped by for something funny this ain’t it. Just me processing that some things in my life need to change.
This past week was my teams annual week together. Usually we have some kind of speaker who helps us get better at the things we are paid to do but since I’ve taken over a lot has changed so I needed time to reset expectations. It was a good week but not without some disappointments. I can’t get real specific here, because, work, but let me just say I saw some sides of my current staff that I don’t like.
That led me to have something I can only describe as beer fears. You know, that feeling you get after a particularly fuzzy night where you get a little worried that you might have done some not so smart things. But in this case it’s all about our time together and my lack of planning for some of the stuff that went sideways. I guess regrets would work as well but I’ve had some of those since I started this new gig. All part of the fun when one steps outside of their comfort zone.
Anyway, I’m struggling with the week but I was sitting here earlier with a big smile on my face. All 3 of my work best friends are female. Not for any particular reason other than they are all some of the smartest people I’ve known, hard working, and I completely trust all three. Two of the three were with me last week and we had some rare time alone to interact.
And before anyone read anything into this situation these women are like sisters to me. Even though one is young enough to be my daughter and I am definitely the eldest of the group. So turn off whatever part of your brain takes every story to a dating place. These three would be the nucleus of a company if I were to start one any time soon. But these people are close enough to me that their opinions on someone I date matter.
The point of writing this was I have come to the conclusion that it is these three people keeping me employed with this company. I consider them my people and That’s what keeps me coming back. The things that are currently pissing me off about this gig are all impacting them as well to different degrees. It’s gotten to the point where we have time based pacts in place.
The other reason you are reading this is it’s all my brain can process right now. Other thoughts get shoved aside because for the last year and a half, since I moved away from my personal life, my one consistently good thing was this job. That eroding under my feet has my brain tied up in a knot.