no idea how to entitle this mess
This new year new system shit is tougher than I remember mostly due to the innumerable side roads I travel before landing on a single method. I won’t bore you with my productivity systems for 2025 but I will say that they took until Sunday night to complete. Systems might seem a little odd as most folks tend to have one and stick with it but I have personal and professional workflows and that’s what works for me. (when I say works I really mean calms my overactive brain)
The work system is dictated by a lot of factors that I don’t have total control over. I like it, but it doesn’t really fit the way my brain works. There is no way I would subject my beloved coworkers to my erratic thought paths so work is its own system and I add what I need to get done daily, weekly, monthly, and yearly into my overall flow but following their rules. (just the 7th day of the new year and already a front runner for worst sentence… apologies)
If they had to follow my stuff I would do more explaining than thinking. Case in point: about two years before I made the decision to change jobs and move home I needed to work through why I was not feeling great living alone in Minnesota…
That was one of five pages that I ended up walking through with my therapist at the time. Lots going on in this guys skull. Anyway the theme this year is to be more deliberate and have purpose. I feel like I’ve achieved it at work by loving the company I work for, the people I work with, and the work that I do. I have even learned to love the constant travel which has its own calming rhythm. So this year is all about finding the same in my personal life and therapy is one of the ways I’m trying to get that done.
The therapy thing unearthed some truths last year that hit me like a ton of bricks and I’ve got some more work to do. I can’t go in to much detail with the first part because it isn’t completely my story to tell and writing some of it down, even with protective editing, has the potential to hurt some feelings. I would never want to do that here even if there are twenty or so of you total in the audience. Putting someone on blast without their knowledge isn’t great and I’ve got enough Karmic boomerangs headed my way from a dark black sense of humor that decapitation is a realistic possibility. Let’s just say that when the therapy thing hits a nerve you feel it for quite a while.
I have absolutely no idea where I was going with this nonsense but “I won’t bore you with my productivity systems for 2025” turned out to be complete bullshit. sorry bout that… I think I was going to talk about how journaling every day takes away from my desire to write in this thing but I can’t be sure right now. That could trigger you to wonder why I don’t just write in here on the daily…. That is because I don’t want to bore/confuse you more than the level at which you signed up. Plus some of my daily journal stuff is incomplete thoughts and most likely exposes more of me than I’d like on a daily basis.
I’ll give you a couple examples for context and then well never speak of this again:
at what point do people with a plastic surgery addiction break their brains into thinking absolutely everything they do to themselves looks good? I just sat at a bar next to a dude somewhere around my age with a full on lady face. And yesterday I got caught mesmerized by a catwoman.
don’t hold the door for someone if you demand a thank you. I walked through because you were being awkward - just to make it stop. Your aggressive YOU’RE WELCOME made me want to punch you in the dick.
holding your phone flat in front of your mouth like a pastry you are about to bite while you have a shoutversation with the person on the other end of the call whilst walking through or standing near others makes you an asshole.
travelers getting help boarding a plane need to be vetted by an impartial Handicapped or Lazy Department officer… *note to self: form a Handicapped or Lazy Department
tattoos are the human equivalent of vanity license plates
some people should have to scream everything they say so they tire out at a normal rate. I was just in a 2/3 too long conversation and I demand reparations
That last copy and past hit a little close to the home that is this post… stopping now.