itsatrap
I am currently struggling with friends wanting to help when I have not asked for any. Specifically in the dating department. Its almost like an automatic response to the knowledge that I'm living here on my own. Sweet but creepy all at the same time and I bring it up because its not just close friends but people I barely know. My neighbor down the hall has a big dog and I run into her in the halls from time to time. My work hours coincide with her dogs exercise schedule so we have shared a dozen or so elevator rides. During that time I have been unknowingly interrogated as I gave short answers to questions that I didn't know formed a bigger picture. That is until today when I was asked what I was doing tomorrow night...
I answered with my lame shut-in agenda and was immediately invited down to her apartment where her newly single friend would be in attendance. Oh no. Caught off guard my internal excuse gland excreted an elaborate birthday tradition involving a virtual shot (in normal times this fable happens in person I explained) with family and friends leaving me in no condition to interact with live unknown human beings. She wasn't happy about it but took my excuse if I promised to keep it in mind. Ugg, might have to make up a phantom COVID exposure from last week to seal this shut...
I don't quite get the whole setup thing. I could see it if I was moping around and whining about a lack of companionship. Then it would be the adult version of a binky to get me to shut up. Here, date my equally annoying friend so both of you will snap out of it already. But that is not the case. Some folks just want to hook others up and I am finding out its most.
For the record I am honored that they care enough to guard my mental health but I am in no rush to date. In fact I am not officially divorced as of yet so until that whole process is complete I just don't feel right. And then you add in this whole pandemic thing and it adds yet another weird wrinkle. I think for the next couple months I just need to figure some things out for myself.
I should also note that the more I like you as a person the less likely I will be to take you up on your dating suggestions. Reason being that in my next series of relationships I will tolerate very little. I know that seems like an incomplete sentence but it is perfect. I'm not looking for drama of any type and I am just stubborn enough to make that my new reality. This will mean ending things with cold efficiency at the first sign of turbulence. Asshole stance or someone who can put himself first for once? Go ahead and judge because not one shit do I give.