Work has turned into a really boring and annoying Game of Thrones. You might think I’m exaggerating but the cast comes complete with a Mad King, a Clueless Queen, Dukes defending their dukedoms to the detriment of the kingdom, and a host of Jesters and Fools straight from Central Casting. (okay I need a brief mental intermission because I have the odd feeling that I went a little overboard with the random capitalizations… screw it, moving on)
I tell you this because I am reaching my limit. This is hard for me to write because I wanted this to be my legacy job. I once loved everything about this company. The mission and vision were selfless and clear, the work was rewarding, and I knew I was making a difference. Now the only things preventing me from looking for something else are my few trusted friends and the team that I work with. I should also mention that there is more than a little pride keeping me here because I feel like there is some more work I could do to improve my department before I move on.
This is loyalty to my people only. This company gives zero shits about me but I care about my own results. I have a personal stance where I want to leave every thing I run better than I found it. I have made some big improvements but there is still some work left to do before I can move on in good conscience. This leaves me with a general overwhelmed feeling made worse by coworkers worried more about politics and how they look to others than actually getting shit done.
This pathetic whining is brought to you by a person blocking an hour of my time only to waste it talking shit about other people and departments in an effort to sway me in their direction. Meanwhile, we don’t work for a democratic organization so all of this behind the scenes game play doesn’t mean shit. I asked the individual at the end of the call what they think we got done in that last hour and they stared at me like I had two heads. If I did grow a second skull he would be just as disappointed as I. I need to stop this train of thought before I start asking myself too may questions like would we look alike and could he have a full head of hair. Time to change the brain channel.
In other news I might have screwed up by turning off the air-conditioning last week while on vacation. My plants never looked better but I pulled out the normally solid white coconut oil today and noticed that it went full-time liquid on me. I’m no food scientist so this went right in the trash because the cold ass air has been on for 5 straight days and this should have changed back. And before you think about telling me some nonsense about wasteful blah blah blah, I would shock you with the amount of stuff I bail on after one taste. This doesn’t even take into account my ONE THING ENTERS ONE THING LEAVES policy here at the apartment. I just got a new pair of slides and the old ones were donated the very next day.
I need to go walk off this mood before I do something stupid.