I just realized that I don’t remember the last time I wrote on this thing which means it is past due. This might seem weird to anyone who read my other internet ramblings because there were long streaks of daily posts but that is not this. I write in a few places one of which is a daily digital journal I do on my iPad with an Apple Pencil.
I tell you that not as a weird flex or declaration of my stupidity because I over spend on ridiculous things but to let you know where that daily need gets met. I mentioned the medium to explain how I hand write my morning things. My handwriting annoys me for a lot of reasons.
First I’ve somehow forgotten how to write proper cursive. No idea what happened there but I’ll be sailing along and forget what a character looks like so I fixate on that and lose the thought. Very disruptive. Next up, my preferred printing is all caps block letters. If I slow down I can make it look like an architect wrote my thoughts on plans. The problem with that is slowing down.
My brain and hand aren’t in the same gear. Right this second I’m frustrated as I hunt and peck this out with my thumb. And before you send me a note about voice recognition I’ll save you some time, editing the mistakes takes longer than my bullshit typing. I’m going to need that to get much better but I’ve been waiting 20 years so I’m not holding my breath.
Finally, I’ve been trying to go away from the all caps thing for six months but depending on the day and the subject I switch back and forth at random like a psychopath. I’ve recently reread some old stuff and the lack of consistency is concerning. I would google what the hell that means but I don’t need to get on another list with those people. Just feels weird to be working on my penmanship deep into my fifties.
Anyway, you might wonder what I write in my journal (I know it’s a diary but humor me) every day but the answer is disappointing.
I start off with something or things I’m grateful for usually from the previous day. It’s harder to be in a shit mood when you start thinking about good things. And next is just what the prompt says: BRAIN DUMP. I write what’s on my mind. This helps me get unstuck. If there is a problem I’m struggling with it usually shows up here and I find that writing it down always helps.
It’s not all bad either. It’s just what’s on my brain. This is usually 5 minutes before I walk to work so it’s top of the skull stuff. Sometimes shower thoughts or ideas creep in. No rules other than get something on “paper” and start my day.
Holy crap this had to be boring. I’ll hunt up a story before the weekend is over…